Wednesday, August 26, 2009
hello guys. lol. sorry long time never blog. haha.
240809.
i'm officially attached. on this date. with this wonderful girl named Nurzalifa. lol. i know. many would be suprised. but, yea. haha. went to school early. met dearest. then, school was normal. haha. after school, got mother tongue test. haha. so easy. lol. after that, waited for dearest to finish her oral exam. then, send her. then, i bus-ed home.
250809
nothing special. lol
260809
school was okay. reached school late. so, didn't get a chance to meet her in the morning. ): . but after school, got aces day training. after that, loiter with dearest and her bestie in school. haha. ok. done.
i actually lazy to post laa. so tired. haha. sorry ah. lol
i love you, aku cinta kau, wo ai ni.
240809.
i'm officially attached. on this date. with this wonderful girl named Nurzalifa. lol. i know. many would be suprised. but, yea. haha. went to school early. met dearest. then, school was normal. haha. after school, got mother tongue test. haha. so easy. lol. after that, waited for dearest to finish her oral exam. then, send her. then, i bus-ed home.
250809
nothing special. lol
260809
school was okay. reached school late. so, didn't get a chance to meet her in the morning. ): . but after school, got aces day training. after that, loiter with dearest and her bestie in school. haha. ok. done.
i actually lazy to post laa. so tired. haha. sorry ah. lol
i love you, aku cinta kau, wo ai ni.
what we could have been, 6:43 AM.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
I don't need love.
what we could have been, 5:43 AM.
Friday, August 14, 2009
i signed in into my blogger today with
an intention of blogging my hearts out.
but i guess i never found enough courage
to come here and just spit everything out.
the only reason why i need to let it all out
is cause i've been keepin' to myself a lot
lately and i think i've come to that point
where i just needa break down and cry.
am i even suppose to feel this insecure?
yes, i've got my friends by my side always.
i know that and i really thank them for that
but when it comes to this, i think there's really
nothin' they can do to help myself get up now.
the problem lies with me and my stupid self.
but i find that there's one person i need the
most right now, you guessed it, didnt you?
the admirable you<3
an intention of blogging my hearts out.
but i guess i never found enough courage
to come here and just spit everything out.
the only reason why i need to let it all out
is cause i've been keepin' to myself a lot
lately and i think i've come to that point
where i just needa break down and cry.
am i even suppose to feel this insecure?
yes, i've got my friends by my side always.
i know that and i really thank them for that
but when it comes to this, i think there's really
nothin' they can do to help myself get up now.
the problem lies with me and my stupid self.
but i find that there's one person i need the
most right now, you guessed it, didnt you?
the admirable you<3
what we could have been, 9:14 AM.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
hello.woke up at 6. went out to school at 6.30 . took 291 to interchange. and 67 to school. suddenly, i saw her. with *him. i ignored. not wanting to hurt myself. reached school at 7.30 . assembled at parade square. wasnt in a good mood. didnt know why. school was like normal. after school, went macdonald. until 3.30. then went home. at home. did a little revision. and slept. at 6pm i woke up. watched tv. and at 7.30 pm went out to go for silat training. silat training was okay. and i am ready for this 15-16 august competition. i know i'm going to win. i will. then went home. watched anugerah. and now, i'm blogging. today's post is boring, i know. i don't know why. i keep thinking about her. why should i? she has *him. gosh.
i'm tired. i'm sick of thinking. i need to rest.
what we could have been, 7:50 AM.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Happy 44th National Day!
so, Singapore is quite old already. hah. congrats. lol. wathing singapore idol now. a lot of potential future singers. like me. -.- duh. haha. jk. ahah. yesterday and today stayed at home the whole day. okay. no. yesterday at night only go out. lol. tomorrow going roy's bbq at east coast. lol. his bdae is today then he decided to celebrate tomorrow. lol. erm. okay. done. lazy to post summore. haha. bye. btw guys, my ppd low ah. so, don't msg. if want msg, okay. but i cant reply. haha.
I love her
but she doesn't love me
i hate to be in this position
why can't we ever be
she loves someone else
i feel all of the pain
i knew if i told her
we would never be the same
i get mixed signals
i get so confused
i knew if i asked her
she would definitely refuse
i wonder if i hadn't told her
none of this would be
all i want from her
is to open her eyes and see
she will never leave him
she loves him
i'm burning inside
i always suffer
i hope she knows how i feel
my love for her is so damn real
What is the opposite of two? A lonely me, a lonely you.
so, Singapore is quite old already. hah. congrats. lol. wathing singapore idol now. a lot of potential future singers. like me. -.- duh. haha. jk. ahah. yesterday and today stayed at home the whole day. okay. no. yesterday at night only go out. lol. tomorrow going roy's bbq at east coast. lol. his bdae is today then he decided to celebrate tomorrow. lol. erm. okay. done. lazy to post summore. haha. bye. btw guys, my ppd low ah. so, don't msg. if want msg, okay. but i cant reply. haha.
I love her
but she doesn't love me
i hate to be in this position
why can't we ever be
she loves someone else
i feel all of the pain
i knew if i told her
we would never be the same
i get mixed signals
i get so confused
i knew if i asked her
she would definitely refuse
i wonder if i hadn't told her
none of this would be
all i want from her
is to open her eyes and see
she will never leave him
she loves him
i'm burning inside
i always suffer
i hope she knows how i feel
my love for her is so damn real
What is the opposite of two? A lonely me, a lonely you.
what we could have been, 5:52 AM.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
hello. hmm.
- school
Today, its the last day of elective module. its really fun. i learned alot at the elective module. tnx to mr lau, mr lim and ms chan. they thought me alot of stuff which might i might consider as my coming career. lol. but overall, today is really suckish. i had no mood most of the time. everyone , okay not everyone. most of the people keep blaming me for everything. they suck man. they blame people without knowing what really happened. oh. you suck. hmm. a maths test was okay. luckily, i studied in the morning. so i think i should pass. yea.
- love
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
- ___________
she's sick now. and she has to come to school just for that project, her friends are depending on. idiots. she's sick and you guys have to depend on her to do that nppa. Luckily she's thinking about you guys or else you should might as well get zero for your marks. ah. forget it. i hate to be angry ^^ . hmm. __________, get well soon. get lots of rest and eat your medicine.
so guys, thats all. tomorrow, after school i have inter-house soccer(3.30 - 5.30), school ndp training(4 - 6) and dialogue session(3.30 - 5.00). which one should i go?
Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been dissapointed to those who still believe even though they've betrayed, to those who still eventhough they've been hurt before.
- school
Today, its the last day of elective module. its really fun. i learned alot at the elective module. tnx to mr lau, mr lim and ms chan. they thought me alot of stuff which might i might consider as my coming career. lol. but overall, today is really suckish. i had no mood most of the time. everyone , okay not everyone. most of the people keep blaming me for everything. they suck man. they blame people without knowing what really happened. oh. you suck. hmm. a maths test was okay. luckily, i studied in the morning. so i think i should pass. yea.
- love
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
- ___________
she's sick now. and she has to come to school just for that project, her friends are depending on. idiots. she's sick and you guys have to depend on her to do that nppa. Luckily she's thinking about you guys or else you should might as well get zero for your marks. ah. forget it. i hate to be angry ^^ . hmm. __________, get well soon. get lots of rest and eat your medicine.
so guys, thats all. tomorrow, after school i have inter-house soccer(3.30 - 5.30), school ndp training(4 - 6) and dialogue session(3.30 - 5.00). which one should i go?
Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been dissapointed to those who still believe even though they've betrayed, to those who still eventhough they've been hurt before.
what we could have been, 6:53 AM.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
hello. currently in comp lab. mt lesson. bored ah. ahah. mm. just now almost fight with pehpekk. but she girl. give chance. lol. a lil no mood now. so. hmm. BYE
i always see her with him. and that's bad.
i always see her with him. and that's bad.
what we could have been, 10:31 PM.
